I'm back online... and suffering from Insomnia...

*bangs head against desk*

I need sleep dammit

Today was my so-called intake conversation with the shrink... Damn I hated that, all that happened was get all the stuff that I suppressed because it hurt me back up... hurting me over and over again.

It feels like I'm expandable, some kind of test-subject for people to experiment their ideas on... in other words: I feel like shit.

Apart from that I'm being bothered by something that's hot, bright and makes people cheery and happy... yes I'm talking about the hell called summer... I want my fucking winter back, I can't stand this.

(CL - Lostprophets - I don't Know

Well it's been some time... So me is back ^^u With a song I just wrote, although it probably needs work, it's my first one. Warning Explicit Lyrics and all that shit.

Becoming A God
As I slowly raise my fist

You’ll be the very first

You will take the hit

You will quench my thirst

You start to cry

Eventually die

You’ll feel free

And thank me

As I shed your blood

I’ll become your god

I’ll make the world stop turn

Just to get my bit of fun

I’ll stay out of the light

Don’t care for what’s right

You start to cry

Eventually die

You’ll feel free

And thank me

As I shed your blood

I’ll become your god

I’ll get a gun one day

And I’ll blow you away

I will watch you die

Laugh, as you cry

You start to cry

Eventually die

You’ll feel free

And thank me

As I shed your blood

I’ll become your god

I will lure you in

Pull out your wings

I’ll watch you squirm

Like a lowly worm

You start to cry

Eventually die

You’ll feel free

And thank me

As I shed your blood

I’ll become your god

As I shed your blood

I’ll become your god

As I drink your blood

I’ll become a god

(CL Godsmack - Sick Of My Life)